Risking it All

I'm not OK. What a way to open an entry in a blog that I haven't updated for months. But that is the truth and I don't plan on sugarcoating it in any way. So let me start again...

I'm not OK, but surprisingly I am OK not being OK. It's a welcome change for someone who tries to be for most of her adult life.If you know me personally you have known by now that I don't stop and cry. I move on from everything (except for some people in my life that I can't seem to move on from but that's a different story). If I fail at something, I waste no time preparing to turn that said failure into a success. You can say that I'm a go-getter, I take risks all the time, albeit calculated. 

This time, I got out of the outskirts of my comfort zone and jumped head first to a future as dark as a moonless night. But if I make it out in one piece, I'll have better lit days for as long as I live. It's not an easy decision to make, starting from scratch when you are almost at the peak of the career that you chose to have for ten years. I am taking this leap as I don't want to wonder what if's in the future. I want to know and experience the answers firsthand. 

All I can say is that my hunger for my passion is stronger than my hunger for wealth and success. That I am willing to risk living a lifestyle that I am so not used to. But of course, I also want to be successful doing the things that I am very passionate about: fashion and writing.

I am being very vague in this post about what I'm trying to do with my life, but all I'm saying is it's OK not to be OK as Jessie J beautifully puts it in her song. And hopefully, I'll be able to get the answers myself soon enough.